I am a 21-year-old female currently in the first year of Medical School after having to take time away from studies due to mental health difficulties. I am using this blog as part of my recovery and to reach out to others in similar situations. I have struggled with suicidal ideation resulting in attempts on my life, self-harm, panic attacks etc. and have recently been given the diagnosis of emotionally unstable personality disorder otherwise known as borderline personality disorder. Given the stigma surrounding this diagnosis, even within the health profession, I want to discuss my experiences so that I can come to terms with my condition and confront the issues that I will most probably face in the future as a practising doctor.